I'm such a downer!!! :P

I was looking through my entries (even if there are only a few), I found out that I am quite pessimistic and a real downer! I mean all of it is about feelings and being annoyed. If you knew me in real life you wouldn't think this was me xD

So here's a happy story that happened today...

Believe if or not, today I had some social interaction with my family. Yes the person who seems quite boring and antisocial can actually hold a conversation (who would have known). So we decided to go on a family outing - to the beach. At first I was pretty hesitant and then I remembered that I would try to get out of my antisocial nature Therefore today I chose to go out instead of curling up in my room with a good TV show or film! What are the odds?

So the drive to the beach takes a while because unfortunately the beaches in the city I live in may as well be in a tar pit... So on the way there we were talking about everything and anything. If you listened to our conversations you would either think that were are a bunch of nerds or we are the best group of friends there can be. That is how much intellectual things as well as sarcasm that is involved in our conversations. Anyways, we were driving and my mum brought up this event that I had almost forgot about. I can't believe I also forgot about it because I thought it was an awesome experience.

Here it goes...
So there's this beach hidden by mountains, so we had to hike up there. It was a very secluded beach - just the way I like it (all to myself). We were meeting friends and at first we were just having fun, playing in the water, running around, talking all of those things. Then a friend that has a boat came and picked us up to take us to another beach that was on an island. It was beautiful. We swam, had a BBQ and genuinely enjoyed ourselves. The best part was at the end when we were being dropped off back to our car. We took the boat to the coast of a nearby beach. The boat couldn't go all the way in - so we had to jump out and half swim, half walk to shore. The funny thing is my brother and my mother and I couldn't swim. So you can imagine our panic, which didn't include my mum's fear of the sea... Anyways we eventually had to put on some big boy pants and jump. And I did. And it was amazing. I was bobbing up and down, hoping that I wouldn't be swallowed by the waves, but I did it!! That was fun as hell! The funniest thing was that my mum said the people on the beach would think we were coming into the country illegally. The expressions on some of the people\s faces when we came onto the beach were priceless xD

I just wanted to share with you a little story that I hope I never forget because, well, it was one of the happier memories. Oh yeah, today's trip to the beach was pretty good too :D
Like I was saying, people end to focus on the bad things and they sometimes forget all the good that happens. I am guilty of doing exactly that. It's sometimes really annoying because I have a lot of good memories but one bad memory seems to top all of that, which really sucks.

My advice: stay positive lovelies <3

Anyways,
Bye :D

New Years

First of all I would like to wish everyone viewing this blog entry a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I hope whoever you are and where-ever you are that you have a successful and awesome year ahead!

Next it's down to the nitty gritty of the situation. As you may have read before I'm not the most rebellious of girls and I don't really get out much. For that, I feel pretty insecure. I know it sounds really childish writing it but it's the truth unfortunately.

This year I had the chance to go camping but my dad said no... Yeah don't ask me why but he will always find some sort of excuse even if it kills him. So as a result, for new years I spent it at home, watching TV and looking at all my friend's having the time of their lives. It really pisses me off because this is my life and I have nothing to show for it. My friend's are out there making memories and I am here sitting by myself blogging about how uneventful my life is. Believe me when I say it sucks. What's even worse is that my friends here, they're just friends, they're not people that I can just open up to, even if I have known them for a long time. Therefore, I feel better sharing my feelings online than I do them... What's up with that!? This also means that I can't really just show up at their house, it just never happens like that because everyone seems to have a life except me...

What was really coincidental (or not) is that I watched this show that I could totally relate this situation to, and in the end the girl steps out of her comfort zone and tries to be more involved. I wonder if the universe is giving me a sign, or I am just really good at picking shows that fit my situation! Either way, I wish I could just do that, but it's not that simple. If they are any people out there like me, they will know that getting out of your comfort zone, being more involved is hard. Especially when you're not exactly what people would describe you as fun. I mean the girl I call my best friend said in front of me that she would miss this other girl who's leaving because she's the only one that she can have a laughing fit with. I mean if that isn't proof enough about me being boring I don't know what is! :P

Another problem is my dad. I believe that all around the world there is this thing called an overprotective father. It's every teenagers worst nightmare. For those who have never encountered one they are strange creatures hell-bent on making sure that you are the most antisocial and boring person on the planet. Occasionally they create the best liars. (In my opinion I'm not that bad, not that good either, but not bad nonetheless). I think he is one of the reasons I don't have any fun - he doesn't let me do anything remotely dangerous. "You can't go out there, there's too many people", "Nope, people are crazy on that day". I mean I would try to sneak out, but I think I would have a better chance at hacking into the Pentagon :P. And yet, he keeps wondering why I have no 'real world' experience, and I'm just sitting there like -" are you serious???" -.-

Anyways, just wanted to rant... Yet again. If any of you feel the same way, just know that you're not alone. If you and I are the only person in the world like this (doubt it), just know that I'll have your back and be your boring-buddy (if you want :P). That's why this year, one of my resolutions is to try and be more outgoing and get out of my cocoon. Maybe you should too - go do something crazy, if you haven't already :D

Anyways,
Bye :D