First of all I would like to wish everyone viewing this blog entry a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I hope whoever you are and where-ever you are that you have a successful and awesome year ahead!
Next it's down to the nitty gritty of the situation. As you may have read before I'm not the most rebellious of girls and I don't really get out much. For that, I feel pretty insecure. I know it sounds really childish writing it but it's the truth unfortunately.
This year I had the chance to go camping but my dad said no... Yeah don't ask me why but he will always find some sort of excuse even if it kills him. So as a result, for new years I spent it at home, watching TV and looking at all my friend's having the time of their lives. It really pisses me off because this is my life and I have nothing to show for it. My friend's are out there making memories and I am here sitting by myself blogging about how uneventful my life is. Believe me when I say it sucks. What's even worse is that my friends here, they're just friends, they're not people that I can just open up to, even if I have known them for a long time. Therefore, I feel better sharing my feelings online than I do them... What's up with that!? This also means that I can't really just show up at their house, it just never happens like that because everyone seems to have a life except me...
What was really coincidental (or not) is that I watched this show that I could totally relate this situation to, and in the end the girl steps out of her comfort zone and tries to be more involved. I wonder if the universe is giving me a sign, or I am just really good at picking shows that fit my situation! Either way, I wish I could just do that, but it's not that simple. If they are any people out there like me, they will know that getting out of your comfort zone, being more involved is hard. Especially when you're not exactly what people would describe you as fun. I mean the girl I call my best friend said in front of me that she would miss this other girl who's leaving because she's the only one that she can have a laughing fit with. I mean if that isn't proof enough about me being boring I don't know what is! :P
Another problem is my dad. I believe that all around the world there is this thing called an overprotective father. It's every teenagers worst nightmare. For those who have never encountered one they are strange creatures hell-bent on making sure that you are the most antisocial and boring person on the planet. Occasionally they create the best liars. (In my opinion I'm not that bad, not that good either, but not bad nonetheless). I think he is one of the reasons I don't have any fun - he doesn't let me do anything remotely dangerous. "You can't go out there, there's too many people", "Nope, people are crazy on that day". I mean I would try to sneak out, but I think I would have a better chance at hacking into the Pentagon :P. And yet, he keeps wondering why I have no 'real world' experience, and I'm just sitting there like -" are you serious???" -.-
Anyways, just wanted to rant... Yet again. If any of you feel the same way, just know that you're not alone. If you and I are the only person in the world like this (doubt it), just know that I'll have your back and be your boring-buddy (if you want :P). That's why this year, one of my resolutions is to try and be more outgoing and get out of my cocoon. Maybe you should too - go do something crazy, if you haven't already :D
Anyways,
Bye :D
Next it's down to the nitty gritty of the situation. As you may have read before I'm not the most rebellious of girls and I don't really get out much. For that, I feel pretty insecure. I know it sounds really childish writing it but it's the truth unfortunately.
This year I had the chance to go camping but my dad said no... Yeah don't ask me why but he will always find some sort of excuse even if it kills him. So as a result, for new years I spent it at home, watching TV and looking at all my friend's having the time of their lives. It really pisses me off because this is my life and I have nothing to show for it. My friend's are out there making memories and I am here sitting by myself blogging about how uneventful my life is. Believe me when I say it sucks. What's even worse is that my friends here, they're just friends, they're not people that I can just open up to, even if I have known them for a long time. Therefore, I feel better sharing my feelings online than I do them... What's up with that!? This also means that I can't really just show up at their house, it just never happens like that because everyone seems to have a life except me...
What was really coincidental (or not) is that I watched this show that I could totally relate this situation to, and in the end the girl steps out of her comfort zone and tries to be more involved. I wonder if the universe is giving me a sign, or I am just really good at picking shows that fit my situation! Either way, I wish I could just do that, but it's not that simple. If they are any people out there like me, they will know that getting out of your comfort zone, being more involved is hard. Especially when you're not exactly what people would describe you as fun. I mean the girl I call my best friend said in front of me that she would miss this other girl who's leaving because she's the only one that she can have a laughing fit with. I mean if that isn't proof enough about me being boring I don't know what is! :P
Another problem is my dad. I believe that all around the world there is this thing called an overprotective father. It's every teenagers worst nightmare. For those who have never encountered one they are strange creatures hell-bent on making sure that you are the most antisocial and boring person on the planet. Occasionally they create the best liars. (In my opinion I'm not that bad, not that good either, but not bad nonetheless). I think he is one of the reasons I don't have any fun - he doesn't let me do anything remotely dangerous. "You can't go out there, there's too many people", "Nope, people are crazy on that day". I mean I would try to sneak out, but I think I would have a better chance at hacking into the Pentagon :P. And yet, he keeps wondering why I have no 'real world' experience, and I'm just sitting there like -" are you serious???" -.-
Anyways, just wanted to rant... Yet again. If any of you feel the same way, just know that you're not alone. If you and I are the only person in the world like this (doubt it), just know that I'll have your back and be your boring-buddy (if you want :P). That's why this year, one of my resolutions is to try and be more outgoing and get out of my cocoon. Maybe you should too - go do something crazy, if you haven't already :D
Anyways,
Bye :D
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