People say that on a first date there are a few topics that should be avoided at all costs: previous relationships, politics and religion.
Well, I'm going into uncharted territory... I'm going to speak about religion :O
My family is Christian. Noticed how I said my family? And by some unknown reason that makes me Christian by association?
What really annoys me is that they never even considered what I believe and in truth I don't really think I can believe in the whole 'God' thing. I am extremely scientific. I need facts and figures. Some people can just accept - I can't. I need proof and this is where the whole 'religion' thing kinda breaks down for me.
I am forced into going to church and being a good Christian girl. And I think I have my parents fooled - I know just what to say. I think I have everyone fooled - even my friends. But it all really backfired because now I'm being made to do things that I don't understand and don't particularly want to do.
I have tried to force myself into believing in the thing and there are times when I legitimately do believe but then something happens and I am brought back to reality. In a way it kinda sucks. My parents forcing me into this, in a way, pushed me away from it - it made me resent Christianity, no matter how good the values are ( a few, not all).
For example, in the Bible it says that homosexuality is bad but I have a friend who is gay and I feel no difference to them and if my religion was to break up that friendship I would probably dump the religion. But this thing has also put a wedge in my family life. I can't really tell my mum and share all the detail about my friends - I don't know how she'll react!
I guess I could just suck it up until I'm 18, when my parents can't tell me anything about how to control my life. That sounds like paradise compared to this
I know it may be a petty problem but it was really eating me up. Now that it's written down I can see the element of truth that I was attempting to hide.
Anyways... Hope you enjoyed my little rant XD
(I'll try to make my next blog entry a little more optimistic :P)
Bye :D
Well, I'm going into uncharted territory... I'm going to speak about religion :O
My family is Christian. Noticed how I said my family? And by some unknown reason that makes me Christian by association?
What really annoys me is that they never even considered what I believe and in truth I don't really think I can believe in the whole 'God' thing. I am extremely scientific. I need facts and figures. Some people can just accept - I can't. I need proof and this is where the whole 'religion' thing kinda breaks down for me.
I am forced into going to church and being a good Christian girl. And I think I have my parents fooled - I know just what to say. I think I have everyone fooled - even my friends. But it all really backfired because now I'm being made to do things that I don't understand and don't particularly want to do.
I have tried to force myself into believing in the thing and there are times when I legitimately do believe but then something happens and I am brought back to reality. In a way it kinda sucks. My parents forcing me into this, in a way, pushed me away from it - it made me resent Christianity, no matter how good the values are ( a few, not all).
For example, in the Bible it says that homosexuality is bad but I have a friend who is gay and I feel no difference to them and if my religion was to break up that friendship I would probably dump the religion. But this thing has also put a wedge in my family life. I can't really tell my mum and share all the detail about my friends - I don't know how she'll react!
I guess I could just suck it up until I'm 18, when my parents can't tell me anything about how to control my life. That sounds like paradise compared to this
I know it may be a petty problem but it was really eating me up. Now that it's written down I can see the element of truth that I was attempting to hide.
Anyways... Hope you enjoyed my little rant XD
(I'll try to make my next blog entry a little more optimistic :P)
Bye :D
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